“I tried to float somewhere between hopeful and hopeless.”
Colleen Lubin’s story is one with a tremendous amount of loss — and, ultimately, one of resiliency and strength. All her life, Colleen dreamed of becoming a mom. But, like the 6.1 million women in the United States who struggle with infertility, the road to having a baby wasn’t easy for Colleen, who created the blog “Not Quite Knocked Up” to document her journey. (It’s a must-read for those trying to conceive and those in the throes of new motherhood.)
In the span of three years, Colleen suffered five miscarriages (including both a chemical pregnancy and an ectopic pregnancy) and two failed IVF treatments. The sixth time she found out she was pregnant — the one that would stick — was the day after her dad died unexpectedly. Today, Colleen is mom to nine-month-old Liam, and she’s been open, honest, and very candid about her road to pregnancy, what pregnancy after loss is like, and what it was like going into labor six weeks early, six hours away from home.
I am sending so much love and light to all the women out there this Mother’s Day. Whether your day was celebratory or difficult, I am here for you. If I’ve learned anything as a new mom, it’s that moms in all stages have each others’ backs. I have yours.
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What you’ll get on this episode:
- Did Colleen always know she wanted to be a mom? (4:00)
- Did Colleen expect the road to motherhood to be easy? (5:50)
- Colleen opens up about her long road to having a baby (9:40)
- The emotional side of suffering multiple miscarriages (20:20)
- Colleen’s take on what to say — and what not to say — to women struggling with infertility, miscarriage, and loss (24:00)
- Colleen’s IVF journey (31:00)
- The toll five miscarriages and two failed rounds of IVF took on Colleen’s marriage (40:00)
- Colleen’s reaction when she found out she was pregnant — the day after her dad passed away unexpectedly (45:35)
- Colleen’s message to women struggling with infertility, miscarriage, or loss (57:00)
- On having a baby six weeks early, six hours from home (1:00:03)
- On guilt, shame, and inadequacy (1:04:00)
What we mention on this episode:
Kristin Mallon on Episode 136 of the Ali on the Run Show
Abby Bales on Episode 139 of the Ali on the Run Show
RESOLVE: The National Infertility Association
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Thank you for sharing this story. I am going through my third round of IVF. After having 3 miscarriages…
Running is my therapy and I am not allowed to run during IVF.
I really do wish this was talked about more💕