Today is better than yesterday.
How about that?
Let’s talk about it in grateful form, because today is Thankful Things Thursday.
Yes, happy holidays to you and yours.
I’m thankful I feel a little better today. Will it last? Ha. Probably not. But maybe. The whole “my stomach is so full and bulky and bloated that it’s hanging down over my knees” feeling is gone, which is awesome, because that was bringing me way down. I still didn’t feel awesome last night, but I woke up this morning feeling like someone had basically deflated me. I’m like a Crohn’s balloon or something.
Obviously I’m not sure why I’ve improved slightly today. I did try to avoid dairy yesterday and I didn’t eat many vegetables. My dinner was a hearty bowl of plain white pasta with some olive oil, garlic and black pepper. No veggies on the side. Just straight-up Carb Heaven. Maybe that helped. And this morning I had oatmeal for breakfast, and so far that’s sitting just fine. Excelente!
That’s Spanish for “I’m wicked psyched I don’t look like I’m housing a beach ball underneath my shirt today.”
I’m thankful I got to be Ali On The Run today!!!
MORE EXCLAMATION POINTS!!!
Every time I get to run lately I feel pretty lucky. Today was one of those days.
I went to bed last night with a plan:
- Wake up in the morning.
- See how stomach feels.
- Hope to run.
- Know that running may not happen.
- Still hope to run.
- Gaze longingly at running shoes.
- Hop on bike instead.
But hey guess what?
I didn’t ride “my” bike today.
I friggin’ ran. Because I could.
My run was not fast. My average pace was probably 8:45 or so, and I covered seven miles.
My run was not easy. There were times on the slightest inclines when I was huffing and puffing a little more than I may have liked. But I kind of didn’t care. I was running, and I wasn’t running to the bathroom.
I did have to make a Starbucks pit stop on the way to the park, but once I started running I was OK. No further stops needed!
It was a perfect running morning — breezy, not too hot, lots of happy people running and riding — and I am so happy I got to be a part of it. I’m looking forward to getting back in running shape, because right now it feels harder than I’d like. But I know that will come eventually, and in the meantime I’m trying to be aware of my pace but not really care about it or, for once, over-analyze it.
I’m thankful for the wonderful people in my life who, even when I’m at my worst, can give me some perspective and make me feel so much better.
Is life hard sometimes? Sure. Can it pretty much always be worse? Um, yeah. Does the good stuff usually outweigh the crappy stuff? Yup. At least it should. That’s the way I try to look at things. And I love that there are so many people I know who maintain the same outlook.
I went through a phase a few months ago, when I was first starting to feel sick and injured, where I was overcome with negativity. Everything was the worst. Everything sucked. Everyone was ugly. Everyone was mean. But eventually I realized that was a shitty way to live. It was exhausting. Happy living is so much more fun and, truthfully, it comes more naturally to me.
Really though, happiness and positivity are contagious. When I spend a lot of time with crabby people, their energy works its way into my Crohnsed-out system, and then I get all worked up, too. I try to avoid that a little more now.
Sarcasm is not included in this thought. I always welcome a heavy dose of sarcasm in my life.
I’m thankful I have laundry in my building. I don’t do laundry often enough to begin with. If I had to take my smelly stuff outside to a laundromat it would certainly get done with even less frequency. It’s a luxury I appreciate.
I’m thankful Tyler is getting so huge. Yeah, he’s 6 pounds 2 ounces. In other words, he’s a monster. So big.
But really, I’m happy Tyler is home from the hospital and doing well. I miss him a lot.
I’m thankful for Newsies on Broadway. It’s awesome and you should go see it.
The cast is so talented. The boys are so sweet. You will love it. You might cry. Not that I cried or anything…You know me, I never cry at stuff. Also, I sing “King of New York” in my head while I’m walking to work sometimes. I’d say that’s normal.
I’m thankful my summer calendar is wide open. I’m trying not to make plans. Plans = Busy Ali = Stress = Crohn’s. I will only commit to plans I’m really really really psyched about. This includes trips to Six Flags, the beach and basically anywhere I have a friend with access to a pool. If you have a pool, call me maybe. Let’s make plans. I’m ready to commit.
I could go on and be cheesy and stuff, but in my possibly-brief moment of health, I’m feeling grateful for just about everything. I’m thankful for my family and my friends who have all been really patient with me as I’ve been sick and miserable, and I’m thankful that any people who think I’ve been bitchy and annoying have only shared those feelings behind my back instead of to my face. Hehe.
I know getting back to total health may be a constant struggle, but that’s kind of the nature of this disease. I also know that getting my running back to where I want it to be may not be easy, but I’m ready to take that on. My foam roller is on stand-by.
Until next time…
SHARE YOUR THANKS: What are you appreciating today? Good food? Great runs? A healthy body? A cute new bathing suit? I literally want to know every single thing you are happy about.